EXPRESSION

So in relation to expression, expression in the audible sense and otherwise... In our minds we have so much that we wish to express, some of which we do and some of which we don't. So what then, is the means by which we decipher what we express and what we do not express...? For me is has generally been fear of some kind that hinders my expressions. Knowing then that whatever I say/do- whatever I express- will have an effect on those around me and situations at hand, why do I hold back? Simple...in honest self-analysis it is the realization that I have NO control over how my expression is received, and what then shall be reciprocated as a result. Every single utterance produces certain effects that follow.

Everything I say...do...starts a reaction. Tracy Chapman says "what chain reaction would cause an effect...would you change..."...

Previously I had written about the ability to "say anything", and I now realize it is much more than that. It is the saying and the doing, it is the saying and the not saying; it is the moment we live in and what we do with that moment at hand. It is looking back over my life and seeing where I 'could' have done something differently, what I 'could' have said, or not said...and then striving for the point at which there is no need to look back.

The Moment. The Becoming.

In relation to be-ing a social being; expression is the means by which we, well, socialize. Noise, language, looks, exchanges...actions. Newton says "for every action there is an equal or opposite reaction". This is, in my opinion, the formula correlating expression. It is courage in the face of the enemy; the enemy here being our own be-ing. Our social exchanges...our morale in a sense. It is the collision of intensities that makes us human. Or is it?

No looking back...the goal. To accept the life we have lived, the expressions we have expressed; and the willingness to do it all over again with no recourse. The point of Zarathustra- no looking back. That is the Zen in the moment. To be there. "This long lane behind us: it goes on for an eternity. And that long lane ahead of us- that is another eternity. They are in opposition to one another, these paths; they abut one another: and it is here at this gateway that they come together. The name of the gateway is written above it: 'Moment'". (Nietzsche-Thus Spoke Zarathustra pg.178)

...And this is it...when extolling or abasing expression, when expressing, the focus goes straight to the control aspect. We, no excuse me, I am either in regret and reflection of the past or in fear of the future; of the 'cause and effect'...of the moment at which there is freedom. Freedom... True freedom. "Nothing is certain. Life is full of uncertainties, full of surprises- that is its beauty!...Life goes on moving with a thousand and one uncertainties. That's its freedom. Dont call it insecurity. I can understand why mind calls freedom insecurity...Freedom creates fear. People talk about freedom but they are afraid...". (Osho-last weeks message from Osho facebook group)

This is moment, freedom, and expression...yet as thought- freedom is a bit terrifying- Clarity...? Not in the sense of sober minds, but in the sense of reality. There is POWER in clarity, in freedom, in moment, and in expression. They are the guiding forces which institute a hope and a reprieve...a search- for the real. The will to power. "Thus the will, the liberator, becomes a malefactor: and upon all that can suffer it takes revenge for its inability to go backwards. This, yes, this alone is revenge itself: the will's antipathy towards time and time's 'It was'". (Nietzsche- Thus...pg.162)

Dont look back...

"All 'It was' is a fragment, a riddle, a dreadful chance- until the creative will says to it: 'But I willed it thus!' Until the creative will says to it: 'But I will it thus! Thus shall I will it!'" (Nietzsche- Thus...pg. 163)

Thus shall I will it...hmm...

So to another facet of the spectrum we take a look at the state or standpoint of "I don't care." Liberating, Zen; reflection of freedom and moment. Not in the tone of apathy; but in a trajectory of be-ing in the moment.

To relate it back to expression; being able to allow expression to shine through in spite of the frailty of pride or desire for control- and to just express. To simply be. Be-ing. Being human. Flowing intimately with all its intensities, noises, passions, questions, longings, and fears. Moving freely; frame by frame. Living and breathing each precious breath of now and of today.

Expression.

To 'see' the true sense of hollow. "The world is hollow. In-itself anything is precisely nothing. A thing exists positively only in the precise sense that it exhibits certain forces, that it forms connections or disjunctions with other things, or assemblages of things, in such and such a way...Love is not a question of signals, but of production. Not words but noise. The word is hollow: in itself everything means precisely nothing. Yet no thought is ever without its heretical dimension, its strange and apocalyptic promise — the dangerous promise of possible knowledge." (Joe Weissman- Transparency: Fractalontology.wordpress.com) The meaning is what fills the gaps and transforms the hollow and the nothing into the full and intricate...the meaning, the expression; the intensities that bind our eyes to slant with passion and that causes our hearts to beat with a persistent yearning.

To exemplify the life of love in which we live. To see the beauty in what makes us who we are... "Where is beauty? Where I have to will with all my will; where I want to love and perish, that an image may not remain merely an image. Loving and perishing: these have gone together from eternity. Will to love: that means to be willing to die, too." (Nietzsche- Thus...pg.145)

The tragic comedy that we call life...lived from expression.

(Originally written January 2009)