I have spent countless hours and years trying to define life's meaning. I have scoured the internet, read the works of great literary figures, practiced various religions, and studied the ancient teaching of great wisdom. The only answer that I have ever found that makes sense is that the meaning of life is whatever meaning we decide to give our life. An utmost existentialist view.
To the man who says that the meaning of life is to please God, or to the one who says it is to live for logic and reason, or the one who says it is to be in harmony with the world and its' people, or even to the one who says life is devoid of meaning; to them I would say they are all correct. For if that is the meaning that they as individuals have decided to give life, then it is certainly their life's meaning.
At first I was relieved to have answered such an enormous question! Ah-ha! I have solved the meaning of life! It wasn't until a few hours later that I realized I hadn't solved the answer to my question...what is the meaning of my life?
If the meaning of life is whatever meaning we assign to it, then what is the meaning that I have assigned for myself? Does this meaning remain consistent throughout life, or does it change? How do we assign such meaning? What shall be the basis for my decision? Such burdensome and anxious thoughts stirred up additional facets in trying to answer this question. Is the answer based on our belief structure? And if so, what is my belief structure? What do I believe in at all...?
So here I sit, pondering and questioning. Sorting and sifting through my broken and cluttered mind for answers to such questions that may cause pain to face. It is only through true self-honesty that these questions can be answered. It is only with a willingness to face myself- in all my dysfunction- and to become transparent that I will find the answers I seek. For now, I will settle on the fact that I at least have a path toward this enlightenment. Perhaps it is as a quote from George Bernard Shaw says: "Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself". This is still up for debate with me.
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